Getting back into shape last fall was as hard as I thought it would be. Two steps ahead and one back has been the melody of this winter. It’s easy to remember the good times and forget the hard days. Sometimes I feel I’ve lost my head and worry more than staying postive.
I’m very grateful of the improvements and the huge steps I have taken. But it’s very difficult to cope with the sessions pulling me back again. Last Saturday I ran well and pushed myself harder than I have been able to in years. That’s a good thing.
Then on Wednesday I had a really bad day and my legs felt like rocks. I was running a 3,2 km training race and I was suppose to increase the pace each kilometre. My head wanted to run fast and I wanted to believe I could do anything I wanted. Soon after the first kilometre there’s not much juice left and I can’t increase the pace.
Can or cannot..?
Those days are still hard to cope with. It’s difficult to remember Saturday and forget Wednesday. I sometimes feel like I’m back where I started in September. – Totally out of shape and lacking confidence big time. Believing I can’t run fast ever again… String mind, right…?!
On the other hand, it’s only one bad day at training. It’s nothing to worry about at all. From all the experience I got, this is piece of cake. Take it easy Thursday and Friday. Start easy on the session Saturday. It’s simple. Don’t let the mind play with you, Hanne!
Been there? How did you cope with it?
Enjoy training this weekend!