I guess between seasons it is very easy for me to forget that my legs really know what they were put on the track to do. I should always trust them, because more often then not, they pull through for me. The unfortunate thing is that when I get to races my mind doubts them so much! Or maybe my mind doubts itself… that could very well be. Wondering if I will be able to handle the pain, wondering if I am going to slow down when it hurts, or give up are the worst fears. That hasn’t happened since the beginning of cross (where I stopped mid-race), so I should probably trust that both my legs and mind will get me through whatever race is ahead of me.
So my last post described my intense nervousness for my upcoming steeple at Wartburg where I was the only entry. Turns out that my head did get in the way of things…well so did a thunderstorm I guess. I was nervous about this race days before knowing I was the only one out there but figured once I got there I would be fine… dumb move Steph. I ended up questioning my legs and my mind that day, a bit to much. But honestly, it’s freaky thinking you are going to be the only one on the track! haha I think that was a major pit fall for me that I just couldn’t get back… it just isn’t my style to race alone, I need the companionship in a way. As stupid as this sounds,as I was waiting before the meet started I kept watching more and more people show up to the meet (to race of course…go figure!!! 😉 ), and I just imagined everyone doing their own thing with me just running around the track, having people taking a double-take to see where the rest of the field was haha! I knew people wouldn’t be sitting there, all eyes on me, but once that announcer (who I always hear during races!!!) opened their mouth saying “Perleberg is the only one in this steeple today”, I figured people would at least check it out, it’s not ever day there is just one person in a heat of anything. Then I imagined all the other comments the announcer would say to kill the awkward silence…”Perleberg is on lap number 2 and is in the lead!”…”Three laps left and Perleberg is still winning!!”